Miss Colette

How blessed I was when I heard that I got to live in that house  Let me warn you again, all glitters are not gold  A person that I wanted to be for long  Now I get to live them, learn from them, and see their side of life  I just didn't know, it was the start of my mental struggle  I was just assured that I would be fine and all loved  I was just a teen who was going to college  In an urban and citylike life  I had big dreams and I hoped for support  Don't think of money, I mean ideas, experience  I just didn't know, I was going into a broken home  With no love, no peace, and a lot of regrets  At first, I thought it happened to be a bad day  But those bad days carried on for a lifetime  All I wanted was kindness, a little good of a heart  All I got was people bleeding on me when I don't recall cutting them  You know what they say,  when you can't heal what broke you,  You bleed on people who didn't...

Life, love, bonding, partnership, friendship,  A slight change in all these can break a heart  But a void of absence brings grief  A friend said all we have is now, and I questioned it for some reason.  I am still in denial, I never believed that someone's death would affect me this much  But the reality is, it is kicking my b***  and the hole in my heart grows founder  I loved a tough love but loved truly and unconditionally.  She felt closer to my heart, as much as I hated her disturbances, I adored her presence. For the whole 3 years, I felt like I had someone to leave behind and it was a reason   to go home, to spend a day at the house, and to love every day.  I had her as a partner and my most joy would be brought by her around the house Her warmest hugs, her loud laughter, and her jokes around annoyed me every chance she got  I miss all that,  Ever since you left, I feel alone, the house feels empty without you here...