That one house

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How blessed I was when I heard that I got to live in that house 

Let me warn you again, all glitters are not gold 

A person that I wanted to be for long 

Now I get to live them, learn from them, and see their side of life 


I just didn't know, it was the start of my mental struggle 

I was just assured that I would be fine and all loved 

I was just a teen who was going to college 

In an urban and citylike life 


I had big dreams and I hoped for support 

Don't think of money, I mean ideas, experience 

I just didn't know, I was going into a broken home 

With no love, no peace, and a lot of regrets 


At first, I thought it happened to be a bad day 

But those bad days carried on for a lifetime 

All I wanted was kindness, a little good of a heart 

All I got was people bleeding on me when I don't recall cutting them 


You know what they say, 

when you can't heal what broke you, 

You bleed on people who didn't cut you 

She bled on me heavily and that tore my heart and messed up my mind. 


Even the little resources I got, were taken from me 

With a say that, they will make it up to me 

Didn't see love, didn't see life 

I was just another college girl who lived in a complicated home. 


My dreams were crushed  

Even when all I wanted was just a platform

I got curses and side eyes 

Being thrown in the back of the house to lead the kitchen 


Nothing is ever forever 

I have to leave  

And I am mending my heart 

I am just grateful to the few people that were there for me 

To support me emotionally and talk when I wanted to let it out. 


I developed hate 

Towards everyone and everything 

I have trust issues 

Where I don't trust love, kindness, or anything good  


 My bills like rent and food were covered 

But on the other side, I paid with my mental health 

A brother rescued me though  

I happened to have the best ones 

Location: Gikondo, Kigali, Rwanda
Glad to see you here, My name is Colette MUKAGATERA welcome to my personal blog. I'm an aspiring writer since 2016. I will be sharing experiences, love stories, poetry, and anything else that can be expressed in written form.

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