Someday Syndrome: Waiting to be Worthy
Some have the fear of missing out, Some have the fear of being included, Some have the fear of being forgotten, I have a thing with perfection. An endless toxic relationship, That forces me to wait for life, Instead of living it, experiencing it. I get to believe that some day it will be different, I will be prettier, more beautiful, more attractive, more intelligent, more creative. That may be it will work out for me, I will be chosen and worth, And I will be so deserving. I slowly dismiss the fact that I could still, be better, bolder, if I take action now. If I really live, make mistakes, and experience whatever it is there to. I have a fear of being present, I am haunted by the past, and I am stuck in belief that the future is the best there is And yet I am just here doing nothing waiting for the future, waiting for life.