Someday Syndrome: Waiting to be Worthy

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Some have the fear of missing out, 

Some have the fear of being included, 

Some have the fear of being forgotten, 

I have a thing with perfection. 

An endless toxic relationship, 

That forces me to wait for life, 

Instead of living it, experiencing it. 

I get to believe that some day it will be different, 

I will be prettier, more beautiful, 

more attractive, more intelligent, more creative. 

That may be it will work out for me, 

I will be chosen and worth,

And I will be so deserving. 

I slowly dismiss the fact that I could still, 

be better, bolder, if I take action now. 

If I really live, make mistakes, and 

experience whatever it is there to. 

I have a fear of being present, 

I am haunted by the past, 

and I am stuck in belief  

that the future is the best there is 

And yet I am just here doing nothing 

waiting for the future, waiting for life. 

Glad to see you here, My name is Colette MUKAGATERA welcome to my personal blog. I'm an aspiring writer since 2016. I will be sharing experiences, love stories, poetry, and anything else that can be expressed in written form.

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