June: Save me from a lifetime dissappointment or drawn me into deep waters

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 June is finally here 



Allow me to scream Happy Birthday friends, Happy New Month fam, and Happy Pride Month. I am supporting people here, don't come for me, even if you do, you can't find me; I don't exist in real life. By the way, yesterday someone told me that every person who is born in June is a little gay. Just passing by. 

Let's get to why I am here, I think I was talking a lot🙈


I am here to ask for a friend, Am I the only one who thinks that June is a month of heavy planning and correction? Or is it because I was born in July and I take June as a time to correct the mistakes that I made since July of last year?

This whole situation doesn't sit well with me, it makes me way uncomfortable and stressed out. The planner I am, I have a belief that June can help me fix the mess I have been making since I started the year. If you have to know, I don't normally start a year in January, for me it's July. 

The mistakes that I have been making have to catch up with me in June and I put my mind to fixing not living. The other fun fact is that I am tempted to explore fantasies and do crazy stuff I have never done before. In the back of my mind, I will be like as long as it's before July or My birthday.  I just don't take any loans or make any fake promises which I consider a good thing but if I had been thinking of doing something and somehow my values or principles don't align with it, June removes that and allows wildness and craziness at its best.

This movie, "Raising Voices (ni una mas)" added a punch to my thinking that people wait for June to make things right in whatever going on with their lives or school. 

One day in June some years ago I explored a fantasy; it is the longest friendship I have today. 

You know, people say that our secrets bond us together😉 

For this June, I plan to confess a crush that I have been having since March, Hope it works. I don't need much from this crush, not a ride-or-die kind of friendship or relationship. I am in for just a one-call-away person when I am having a bad day or crazy thoughts.  


Let me know if your June plans include me or if I can include you in mine, sounds friendly, right?


Glad to see you here, My name is Colette MUKAGATERA welcome to my personal blog. I'm an aspiring writer since 2016. I will be sharing experiences, love stories, poetry, and anything else that can be expressed in written form.

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